Part 2 What should I do? He still haunts my soul...
We kissed so passionatly, we stood at the foot of his bed,
wrapped in each others arms. I could feel his heart beating
against my cheek as I rested my head on his chest. We looked
into each others eyes, I saw hope, happiness...I teased
him with my tongue. We stood nose to nose, inhaling each
other's breath. With both of his hands, he touched
my face, pulled me into him, kissing me deeply. My fingers
wandered across his chest, I could feel his pierced nipple,
I wanted so badly to rip his shirt off and taste his skin...I
had to stop, my mind and body were spinning out of control.
He took my hand and placed it on his hard cock. I wanted so
badly to drop to my knees and devour every single inch of
him. Feeling dizzy, and light headed, if it hadn't
been for him holding onto me so tightly, I think I would have
fallen onto his bed. I had to take a step back and take a deep
breathe. We could have easily gotten naked and ravaged
each other. However, he was only on a "long lunch"...I
didn't want our first time together to be that way.
I wanted to wait until the weekend, until we could stay cuddled
in bed all weekend, taking full advantage of our passion
for each other.
He was the perfect balance between bad boy and a gentleman...to
this day, I still get chills all over my body and tears begin
to fill my eyes when I think about him.
I drove home on cloud nine, thinking about who would relocate.
Thinking about how well our taste in interior designs would
gel together. We are both creative people and I thought
about how a future together could be so perfect, since I
am working on opening an art gallery soon. Our taste in music,
food, life in general...not exactly the same, but would
compliment each other, perfectly.
After I got home...I started thinking about how overwhelmed
I was with him, then realized, ...we had only been talking
for a week! I started trying to rationalize my feelings.
Then it hit me! His facial features were similar to my ex-very-bad-boy-friend-w/benefits,
with whom my heart was still trying to recover. I sent him
an email telling him that I wasn't ready to put myself
"out there" again.
Needless to say...our weekend together never happened...it's
been nearly a month since we had lunch together. We've
spoke very little since then. I see him on-line at times,
he doesn't instant message me...and I don't dare
IM him, because I am afraid of rejection.
At times, I feel like I dropped the ball too soon...a part
of me is afraid that I may have pushed away the right one this
time. I'm not sure what I should do, to try and make this
right. Or should I just let it go? All I know is that so far...he's
come the closest to my perfect match.
Thanks is advance for any advice. ~Haunted~
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