When to let go
This is unique story and I think I tell it for closure. I actually
plan to make it a book some day. My best friend was my childhood
sweetheart as well. We have been friends for 20 years as
well as on again off again. He was always there for me. Even
when he was too blind to see that I was ready to be with him,
I accepted this and let him go on with his life. He got married.
She was so much like me we could of been related. The one thing
he wasn't was honest with her about exactly who I was.
In a low spot in my life I let him back in as he explained how
he needed me there and since I was with no one we could work
on something as long as I was in his life. I believed the whole
idea that he would let her go. The sad part is I think he would
have if it had not been for the fact that she became pregnant
and found letters he had written to me that I had no knowledge
of explaining how I was the one and he should have been with
me. This of course destroyed the relationship that she
and I had began as friends. I am far from innocent. When I
fianlly found the man I was meant to have my best friend began
to act quite stand-offish. I now believe it was because
he knew that for me this was the one. She forbid him from calling
me. I just had a b-day and I got no e-amil or anything from
him. I feel stupid. Why? For twenty years I defend him and
the love that we shared that no one could end and that we would
never sacrifice when all I was to him (as long as I was single
and in self sorrow) was his guarantee on the side. So maybe
we didn't really have love and maybe he was never really
my friend. I just didn't know when to let go.
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